My entire time on deviantART has been a lie. I know it sounds really crazy, but please, you have to hear me out.
I can't stand the guilt anymore. The lies I've told, the people I've lead astray... It's all starting to pile up on me, and now I have to get out with it.
I'm not an atheist. I was never an atheist. I was never a Wiccan, either. I am, and always have been, a Christian. I knew I couldn't keep this from you guys any more, so let me explain.
Last night, an angel came to me while I was laying in bed reading The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins. It appeared at the foot of my bed, and somehow without waking up my husband it said to me in a calming voice that everything was going to be okay. That I didn't have to lie to myself, or anyone else, anymore. That Jesus loves me, that he always had, and that he always will. I asked the angel why I should believe him, and even tried to ignore it. He came over to me and told me that the Bible was written by man, and the true message of God's word was lost to the ages in translation. That I should believe with what's inside my heart rather than on paper. And I shit you not, he touched my Dawkins book and it melted like ash in my hands. I was convinced, and the angel layed its hands on me and suddenly I was filled with the warmth and understanding that only a true believer in the Lord Jesus Christ could have about the world. Now I understand that my militant atheism was just a cover-up for my sinful nature, that I was just rebelling against God because I am naturally rebellious, as all humans are. That my skepticism was propelled by a desire to deny the truth of God's existence, not to find it.
I urge you with all my heart and soul to seek out and find Jesus Christ, because if what the angel told me is true (and it is, because I believe in it, and I believe in it, because the angel said it was true), then you'll be doomed to live without God for eternity after you die, because God cannot be anywhere near sin, and cannot allow the sinful to be near him.
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Things Are Wack
Things in my life are a bit weird at the moment. While I was stuck in hospital, my husband decided to break up with me and, following that, he tried to keep my son away from me. I finally have 50/50 custody back, which is ok. I didn't get a chance to get any closure from the 12+ year relationship I was in, that I moved across the fucking planet for, because he's a fucking coward who can't fucking own up to anything he ever does. That said, I'm hanging in there. I only wish that my son didn't have to cope with the trauma that his father inflicted upon him by suddenly moving him with no notice (which is horrible for autistic people) and then removing his access to his mother. Fuck you, William, for making me love you when you lied from the beginning. Fuck you for saying my sexual assault was cheating. Fuck you for fucking over our son's mental health because you weren't enough of a man to fucking talk to me like a normal human being.
Happy Holidays :)
Hey all, Happy Solstice, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year! :)
I hope everything is going well for you all, and that you're spending time with loved ones this time of year!
Thought I should just give a quick update, I had my baby! He was born September 13, 2017, and I can't begin to describe how emotional and amazing it all was!
Waters broke the day before at 2pm, right as I was leaving a midwive's appointment. Went to the hospital, they started inducing a couple hours later. The epidural wouldn't take at first because I've got a twisty messed up back, but by... 4 am? I think we got one in and I was able to rest. Unfortunately, bub was
Just an update! Hi! Sorry!
I think I should just change my job description to "Professional Apologizer," because that's all I seem to be doing, lol, at least on deviantART. Sorry for not being around. I don't think I'll be able to get back into it after all, life is just way too crazy!
That all said, I just thought I'd drop a line in case anyone is interested how things are going on my side of things!
Still pregnant! Baby stuck! Woo hoo!
We're about 26 weeks along now, and - we're having a boy! We've already picked out a name (which we won't be sharing online due to you know, privacy and all that!) but we're super excited to meet our little kickin' wing. All the
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If I had a dollar for every time I've been told, "You'll think about abortion differently when you're pregnant," I'd probably be able to buy a new TV or something cool like that. Unfortunately, I don't get paid to listen to people complain at me for how I don't believe the same thing as they do, so I'll just have to make do with the TV I've got.
Hubby and I found out that we're pregnant early this year. We're pretty excited. We're only about 7 weeks along at the moment, but if we can just make it to 12 weeks we should be ok because that's when the chance for a miscarriage drops drastically.
We have had a few scares; this last weekend we h
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I know this had to be an April Fool's day joke. XD It would be so out of character for you to be a Christian. In fact, I'd be pretty shocked if it were true, but I know better than that. XD (I would need actual logical evidence that you actually became a Christian overnight XP)